it's the time of the year again!

so what do you want for christmas? I'm feeling generous these days! hahaha. feels good to have hard earned money.. text me your wishes coz i MIGHT grant them haha. or if i can't, i'd just tell santa.. we're friends you know... (but this, of course, will be subjected to an assessment of your behavior for the year.. better be nice and not naughty!)

as for me, my idea of a perfect christmas -- is to spend it with *you*!
if not that, my christmas would still be excellent if i can have my own laptop, a car, and a big house and lot... for good. not only in christmas day but forever.

ambisyosa! 

trashed.
i feel bad.

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on other matters, i've been wanting to blog this but seem to not have the time. its title is.. "grow up"

i've talked to some friends recently. and i realized they got OLDER.. matured, maybe. so i was wondering hmm maybe it's time for me to grow up and stop acting like a child.

topics of our talks are not disclosed (not because they are secret / confidential.. but) because i'm lazy typing.

maybe next time.

my pride is so high that i am becoming illogical at times. it reached a point where I'm putting myself in a really crazy situation. somebody save me.

the title "fried rice" should be read as pride rise.

i super duper mega over hate rainy season.
it's difficult for me to commute.
it's traffic everywhere, it's baha everywhere.

just last friday night, i don't know what time it started to rain but all i know is that it's still raining super hard at around 530-6, yes the uwian time. and remembering what happened the day before (which is thursday),

flashback to thursday: i went home via mrt-lrt2 then asked papa to fetch me from the recto station. but i waited for him at the station for more than 40 minutes because of the heavy traffic and heavy baha at recto.

ok going back to my story:

not wanting the same thing to happen, i decided to eat dinner (and inuman) with my co-leads this time at metr0w@lk and let the time pass by and the rain to weaken, if not stop fully.

at around 930, the rain stopped, and so che bentong and i decided to go home already esp that bentong is sick. so we took a cab to meg@m@ll and i walked to the fx terminal (since lrt2 is closed already that time.)

to cut the *-ing story short, i waited at the terminal for almost 2 hours just to get an fx. because of the baha, the fx's are stucked and takes them a while to come back, and worse, some aren't willing to travel that route, again, due to the traffic and baha.

i arrived home way past 12mn. badtrip right?! i hate rain. i super hate the rain.

there are people who love the rain, because rain has some romantic stuffs attached to it. i remember watching movies, series, etc. and there always is a scene wherein it rains, and then the loverboy and the lovergirl will run fast to somewhere to get a shade, with their hands holding, sometimes using the jacket of the loverboy to cover their heads, then they will hug each other to feel warm.. then the climax: the kiss under the rain.

i hate the rain. maybe one major reason that contributes to why i hate the rain is because i'm just bitter that i don't have a loverboy to walk with me under the rain. haha or better, a loverboy that has a car, and so i won't suffer the aftershock of rain while commuting. hehe.

INSPIRATION.

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It's been so long since I last updated this. So hello world. I am still alive. And I got a new entry, even if I have nothing to say.

another week has passed. l@kers lost. i wasn't able to watch any of the finals games. thanks to office. so hindi ko rin mashado naramdaman ung pagkatalo. parang atene0-l@salle games lng yan e.. super proud pag nanalo tayo tpos kinakanta ung scho0l hymn. pag talo naman nakakaiyak kantahin un! pero pag hindi mo napanood parang hindi rin mashado mafefeel ung pagkatalo (or pagkanalo). kasi hindi mo napanood kung gano kasaya (or kalungkot) ung mga las@lle sa pagkanta ng song nila. hehe speaking of which.. ua@p season na sa july.. sana may mag donate sa kin ng tix sa @dmu-dl$u games. haha.

sa work naman, i was reprimanded by ms tr!c!a because of my many many failing scores. if i dont do better in the next tests im gonna get fired. haha the pressure my gosh. well exag ung fired part. pero still the pressure ha. the topics are harder pa naman. too many terms too many products. we have to memorize everything. this is bad. (alam mo ung feeling ng patapon?! that's how i feel right now. to be at the bottom pack. loser. whatever. siguro my fault din kasi hindi ako nag aaral. fine, so i really need to put effort na badly. kahit konte lng. time to shine malerie.)

ms chlo3 said a while ago na ako LANG daw ang consistent na nagme-make up sa girls. hahaha natawa naman ako dun. (di ko sure kung sarcastic ba or seryoso?) well, thanks siguro to my blood dahil chinese ako at maputi (ehem!) kaya konteng lagay lng ng blush on ay mapula na ang cheeks ko. haha. pero hindi nya ata napansin na may mga days rin na hindi ako nagmake up kasi napipimple ako at na-o-oily ung face ko lagi. i think sarcastic sya? kasi sila che nag a-eye shadow whatever pa sila sa mata at naglilipstick pa. haha so ewan?!

mag skirt naman daw ako.. sabi ng mga co-mts ko. at kanina na-highlight pa ang pressure sa pagpapasuot sa kin ng skirt nung nakantyawan ako nila ms !vee at mam agnes of hr hiring na ako nlng daw ang hindi nila nakikitang mag skirt. hohoho. mahirap kasi magcommute nang naka skirt. haha reasons. at mataba ang hita ko sobra as in. walang K mag skirt. hahaha.

tycoonish shoes. yan description ni xianx sa shoes ko. at nakiki tycoon shoes na rin tong sila che ben. err define tycoon nga. basta sabi ni xianx nakakatakot daw? at may authority. whatever. palibhasa mataba ung paa ko at walang heels ang shoes ko. sabi nmn ni che basta ung hindi daw fashionista na shoes. ah ewan.

hay pansin ko lng, parang wala na kong ibang nakwento aside from bashing my self image. nakakahiya na to! panget at hindi marunong mag ayos na.. bobo at tamad pa! haha (nagfifish lang ako! pagbigyan...) ok next time either i-ppraise ko na ang sarili ko or iba na ang titirahin ko! sympre leaning to the latter tayo.

i flunked a test AGAIN. i was the only one that flunked. it was about acctg. classifying entries into expenses, income, asset, or liability. madali lang sya but tanga ko lang talaga! 28/35 was my score. that's 80%. 2 points shy of pasang awa. huhuhu i really suck.

ms tric!a, one of our trainers, asked me after class "o malerie have you seen your score?"
i answered "yeah i know bagsak ako."
she said "yeah bawi ka next test ah"
i nodded and said "ok"

gosh bawi daw. haha. terms bagsak. acctg bagsak rin. what are my strengths??? daanin ko na nga to sa sipag at @lax@n..

ms chlo3, another trainer of ours, told us that she's scheduling one afternoon for our shopping!! of course with our own money. the other girls are really excited.. but me, hell no. i can now imagine the clothes she's gonna make me wear.. the high heels she's gonna force me to wear.. etc etc. omg the horror. hindi na ko makakatulog. hahaha.

at dahil hindi ako makakatulog for sure, mag-aaral na nga lang ako!

haha title has nothing to do with this entry.

well, this entry is just to emphasize one of my many weaknesses.

i said it before and i'll say it again:
I AM REALLY POOR IN DIRECTIONS.

yes ever since i was a kid up until now that i started working (yes i'm not jobless anymore, that is, for the mean time hehe), bobo talaga ako sa mga directions. yes. this is STILL a fact. nothing's changed.

just yesterday, naligaw ako. yes i got lost again. ugh. why o why.

we were assigned to observe branches of this bank i'm working at. so i made a special request that i be assigned to a branch in manila specifically in bin0ndo and not in alab@ng or p@ranaque so it's near my house. well, my special request was granted. i was assigned in binondo for 2 days. ie yesterday and today.

so the weekend before i was anticipating that already so i asked my dad the location of this branch and the directions on how to go there and go back home. it was clear. i will hitch papa's car when he goes to his office. then he drops me off at this corner then i'll just have to go straight and there. i'm gonna be there. clear and simple.

then monday night mommy and i went to massage also just around THAT area. and instead of riding a sidecar on our way home, she showed me the way home by foot. (it's walkable naman.. around 25-30 mins walk). the directions were oh so clear and easy. i just memorized.

but yesterday came. NALIGAW AKO PAUWI. yes. it took me more than an hour to get home. yes i'm so stupid. i made a wrong decision and poof i got super lost. hindi ko ma-reverse. hahahaha. kung san san na ko napunta.. never been there places even though it's just inside man!la.. i am really super stupid. damn. good thing nakauwi rin ako after. thank god. when i reached our house. i just had a big sigh of relief. nyahaha. god why am i THIS stupid?!

oh anyway, again, i have this job na nga. well this is just my 2nd week there. and did i say the office is really super mega over far from my house!!!??? well yes it really is. i've been experimenting on the ways to get to ortigas. i've tried lrt2-mrt, lrt1-mrt, and limited edition fx. i'm leaning towards the fx but it's super limited edition, i mean there are only a few fxs travelling that route so i have to wait mega long to get a ride. and sometimes it's traffic pa so travel time increases.

on the job itself, we're in training mode pa lang. so we're like students still. doing classroom lectures and stuffs like that. we even had a test. and we'll have lots of tests in the following days and weeks.

i flunked the 1st test. it's 85% passing daw. and i think i only got around 50% or 60% max. hehe. well basically because i'm NOT the theoretical type of persons. i'm not good in memorizing terms. and i don't read that much.

our test was composed of true/false. identification, enumeration, and essay. i sucked the enumeration and essay part coz i don't remember the terms mentioned there. so i just left the essay question unanswered. hahaha. well dahil wala akong masulat, at dahil natatamad akong mag isip ng pambobola. my experience from mtygy in checking papers taught me that teachers'/checkers' time is just wasted on reading useless and wrong answers and solutions. so might as well leave blank the ones you don't know. haha. <--pilosopiya ng tamad.

the lectures and lecturers are fun naman. if we get bored or sleepy, we just get coffee from the table or get as much chocolates as we want. there's a big fish bowl full of chocolates: cl0ud9, choc0mall0ws, choc0crunch!es, flatt0ps, etc. lots and lots of them. that's why i think i'm bloating. we just have to listen and eat. or was it eat and then listen.

haha i have so many kwentos. my entry is really long already. well i don't like the branch thing. i feel useless there? err we were asked to observe. eh 2 days of observation? uhh boring. parang ang busy busy ng mga tao there but ako nakatunganga at pinapanood sila. basta nakakabore. sana we were given like hands on stuffs to do and not just mere observation. eh yeah mahirap kme bigyan ng tasks coz there's money involved there. so ewan. glad that 2 long days are over already.

i have a BIG problem though. we were required to wear skirts, make ups, stockings, and heels. gosh im dying na. those stuffs are so not me. so i just be pasaway. i dont wear skirts nor stockings. heels i wear but only 1 inch. haha. the make ups i try to put light blush on only. no lipstick coz im eating a lot. sayang lang. haha. my hair is a problem too. uhhhhg. my physical appearance is on the line. i think i'll just be pasaway forever. how can i work properly if i'm not comfy with what i'm wearing diba? hahaha defensive eh no.

o well more kwentos about office mates and other activities next post. haba na sobra. sleepy na. aga aga pa kasi klngan magising coz ANG LAYO TALAGA NG BAHAY KO! haha sorry i just love to rant. i'm trying to be as positive as possible but sometimes hindi ko talaga mapigilan. haha anyway i'm still trying to get used to this work lifestyle. and hopefully things will work out well.

everything is..

for the past 30 days i watched:

f0rb!dd3n k!ngd0m
ir0nm@n
$p3edr@c3r
ind!@na j0n3s

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i went around the world in one day.
...well, world is of course an exaggeration. pero the hell napagod ako ah!
1st stop ortigas. then ayala. then eastwood. then katipunan. then north edsa.
commute yan so talagang pahirapan! tpos on the spot pa yan halos lahat.. i mean parang "tara lets go to <insert place here>" tpos un na! kung san san na ko napadpad..

btw tumungtong ako sa school kanina para magpagawa ng transcript.. (this is the katipunan stop) kakasenti! hehe i miss school! boo! buti pa sa school tests lng ang problema! at buti ung test alam mo kung kelan darating! hehe.

oh and i bumped into p!zza kanina at trinoma (north edsa stop). haha wala lng cool! nagkwn2han kme kaya na-late pa ko sa ind!jon3s ko.